Hehe.

Ydae went to st stephens pri for cip wit my "wunnerful" rg mates. Pfttt. Hehe. The boys were so cute! They were p3 but so semangat their school sia. That what ang moh santino boy for example. He passed in front of us and was like nononono ST STEPHENS!!! -punchesair- Haha. So cute! But then Dian asked him whats his name later then he said no. Huff. What an attitude problem sia. Owell. I guess each of us rg people found an individual st stephens kid to swoon over regardless of the fact that theyre like 5 years younger than us or something. Haha. Some were shuai...or should I say potentially shuai? Hmm. Nevermind. Dian swooned over this kid called jerald. Hes potentially shuai man. Now hes cute. Yea. Haha. Maryam and Arina and Dian too I guess and...everybody lah swooned over this lil guy called Benjamin Holden or something. Cute lah. His friends kept harassing him over the fact that he has "girlfriends" cos we were cheering for him. Yea. ("Holden wants Siti Arina's phone no!") Haha. Yea. The day ended wunnerfully too, I must say. Pfft. Me? I swooned over Santino. Until he didnt wanna give his name to dian. Nyeh.

Hehe think were gonna start missing them anytime soon? Hurhur what a farnieee question. You bet were gonna miss them! :)

Oh man I had a really weird dream about s two nites ago. Sheesh! Even if things were the way they were in my dream, Id still say no. I guess its just too weird...besides it would be too rash a decision. As much as I hate to admit it. But then it wasnt entirely the best time of my life anyhow. Owell. But...I guess it would be cool if things were like they were in my dream. Yea. Too bad MY dreams almost never come true huh? As in my sleep dreams. Maybe it was just a premonition of something thats to come along. As in it might not be the whole truth but just part of the truth. I sound crappy but...I donno. Geez give a gal a hard time willya? Sheesh! I wish I had to guts to do what want to do. I just dont. What if things go wrong? I dont wanna be heartbroken. Maybe its best to wait. But Ive been waiting since the start of last year! Only now, Im trying pick myself up agen. What if....sighh. Decisions, decisions. Whos to say the best one wont have any flaws? Sighh.

Owell gtg got music class. Cya wiseguys.

deep down inside

For dearest you. (:

I look into your eyes
there's nothing but pain
confusion
and frustration
deep down inside

you can strut down the street
you can say you're not scared
you know it won't last
`coz I know you're breaking apart
deep down inside

the warmth in your words
the guileless grin
don't think they're lost forever
`coz I know you're just a scared little thing
deep down inside

take my hand
squeeze it tight
I promise I won't let it go
dearest heart it's okay if you're scared
`coz I'm here to mind your back

I won't let you slip
I'll cushion your fall
I'm here if you need me
so don't ever lose hope
deep down inside

(: to my heart
I know you're still you
so don't give up
no matter what you do (:

It just occured to me the no. of people who read this thing without my letting them. And I dont mean strangers. Canniving lil idiots. Hrmp. Oh its nobody from rg so yea. I love my rg mates. :)

Today. Im feeling mixed. My parents took away my phone cos my bill was 46 bucks. So Im kinda sorta pissed and down I guess. But on the other hand, madrasah went kinda well too. Im kinda happy that someone did something. :) Hehe go figure.

I went shopping ydae. Heh. It was like impromptu shopping. Ya. Cos I need new bajus. You should see my cupboard. Haha so kental. Ya. So I told my mum and then she brought me to imm and I bought fila stuff and hang ten stuff. Im so proud of myself kae. I wanted to buy some op stuff and dad said yes but then I listened to my conscience and said no cos I didnt need it. Hehe pro right? whatever, myself.

Ate at long john silver after that. Tapi balik ceret beret sak. Dah dari pagi dah sakit perut malam baru semua keluar. Adoiiiiiikkk. Yesterday got cinta bollywood. Yea. Aik. Bell rang liao. Now is pe is it? Shit I still havent done my malay. Hehe. Takpe recess can. :) Heh. K lah byeeee.

friendability

Oh mannnnnn.

Im super sleepy liaos. If you might have noticed, I deleted some of my previous blog entries. I sound like Ive changed.........but nevermind. Dad told me to delete for paranoia of some deranged stalker or child molester who might come along and read. So I deleted my name from the "the girl" column on the right. Yea. Why should HE control what I wanna put on my blog? Freedom. Of. Expression. Exclamation mark! Sheesh! Hes just being overly paranoid. Whattttttttttt only.

Dah gitu sroh tido cepat pulak. Alamak org tua ni banyak colok ah. Dia marah org boleh org marah dier hari2 bangun lambat antar aku gi skolah dah entah brapa kali asek lambat ajer tak leh. Abihabisan aku yang kena marah terok macam dah giler nak kojol kat skolah. Lincah sal.

Okay times up I gtg now. Shall finish deleting some time soon. Bb! :)