Heloe.

Oii I don get what were supposed to be doing now. Comp studs. I think were supposed to be filming something but evidently nobody cares except the ones who have actually gone out. Hrm.

Know what? I think I saw AIDE ISKANDAR yesterday!! I think onie cos he really really really really really looked like him. But he was alone and Im not sure if Aide's married or not cos he seems like hes married. But nevermind I was at the food centre in front of HarbourFront Centre when I saw him. I was with my family.

I just sat down on the table and started looking around. He was right behind me lahh! I didnt get a heart attack but I just stared all the same. He was wearing a quiksilver tee and jeans and a cap. He really looked like him lahh. And my seat is like directly in front of his lahh and I was like so struggling not to make a dumbass of myself. I wasnt sure tho. Yeaa and at that time I was wondering if he was going to meet like Baihakki Khaizan or something but nevermind. =p Cos he seemed to be waiting for someone cos he wasnt eating athing just drinking. I donno what I didnt notice.

But anyway I didnt gawk point blank at him like a bloody idiot I thought if it wasnt Aide then I'd have a serious case of paisehness. So I just settled on snatching glances at him. I must say he looks better in real life then he does when hes playing football. =)

He left when I left and I managed to get a small smile when I walked behind my parents back. He walked off into the HarbourFront mrt station on the nel line. The most embarrassing part was when I had my mp3 with me and then I was listening to Taufik on it and I was absentmindedly singing. Then he swept right past me. He was like 2 cm away from me and I was singing tho thankfully not at the top of my lungs. DAMMIT! Well at least he didnt break into stitched of stifled laughter or something. He just went on and glanced back at me. Yepp.

Then I went to HarbourFront Centre itself. I wanted to ride a cable car to Sentosa for fun but then it was like 8. So my parents gave a rain check lahh. Sighh nevermind. HarbourFront Centre is really spacey. Its full of brand new cafes and shops lahh but I just ate you see so I didnt get a chance to sample or savour any new delicious delicacies. And everything at Breeks Cafe looked darn nice. My parents promised to eat there the next time but then again they never do keep any promises. So I guess itll be quite a long time.

My fathers being very grumpy. Hes going to be point blank on teevee and he isnt too pleased about it. Hes venting it out on me. For some insane reason. Pfahh.

Okay I shall have to finish my artwork and edit some tribune things by tmr. Sighh I think I shall do the latter now since I just have to access my email. Sighh (beginstolookdrearyandzombiefied) okayy then I shall have to go now. Byee. >O<

Eloe!

Im feeling very proud of myself cos I just ran over my lil bros foot on my swivel chair. Yeppyepp.

Yayy I got Blessings! Wheeeeeee...(fadesintooblivion) You know everytime I think of whee I think of someone doing a 360 somersault. I dont know why I just...it comes automatically. Anyways I love one last, lets stay together, missing you always, all the love, ibu, close 2 u...actually pretty much every darn track on that cd! Yeyy!

It has come to my attention that on fridays (I think) an incredibly cute guy comes over to rg for some class. Yeyy! Okayy. ilovehishair.

Okay nevermind that. Well were now into the third or fourth wk of school (I think) and err...things arent going tHaT well...erm well better `n last year which was abhorring...Im already quite jampacked and sleep deprived. I sleep at 1130 every night tho I guess thats okay compared to other people but nevermind...anyway monday 3rd lang tues tribune wed 3rd lang thurs tuition fri FREE DAY thankG0Odness sat angklung sun madrasah. Shit lahh. Oh well least theres m___n to look forward to! =) Okay nemind.

I don even wanna go for 3rd lang dammit. My bloody teacher teaches stuff in Chinese stuff and I just sit there goin oh sure its no prob Ill just get her to translate. And yajie the Brain is in my class and she and the teacher both have a mutual liking for Chinese and History. Wahlau I sit beside her in class and I think she a bit the pekak but nemind. Everyones so darn brainy!! What am I? Chopped flippin stewed liver? Sheesh lahh! But I cant quit cos my parents won let me..besides I have no good reason to transfer class...whLaU! Its not fairrrr!

Oh and why cant cikgu-cikgu tu smerr just leave the frickin past behind? Dammit! WHich reminds me...the last time I went back to my pri sch last year my malay teacher told her p5s to make us (me and all the other malays who went to cg and mg and bpgh and all) their role models...ya surreeee...sureeeee...I know youll all be very happy yes? Good! Yeyy.

Ergh. Dammit lahh. Ehh even my bro is brainy lahh he reads the dictionary like a book and he knows every single darn thing there is to know about dinosaurs dammit. Im the flippin brainless one of the family lahh dammit. Sheesh lahh cann. Wahlau. Geez Im not sayin anyomore man Im sick of this shit.

Dah lahh penat lahh..nite lahh. Aww mann there goes my mum again nagging nagging naggingggg incessantly both me n my dad cant stand her tho that doesnt mean were similar yuck.

Oh and I don care for bullshitting kat diorang. Wth ahh if you watched hanyut on suria at 0830 yday yerll know. Shit ahh.

LALALALALALALA.

Before I start anything, I would like to say that when I meet Taufik, I'm always VERY jakon. VERY. So I start screaming. In your ear. So I shall say sorry in adance cos I really lose my mind when I see him and his hair. =)

Yayy. I went to that cdans thing at bukit batok taufik performed at with maryam and arina and zai. There was like some kind of exercise thing since it was for the tsunami thing which doesn't make sense but it doesn't matter. Yepp. He was great I tell you GREAT! Well duhh.

We had to wait damn long for his second perf ahh. Cos there were these people doing body combat stuff. But it was...worth...the...wait...I guess...??? No I mean they took so damn long for the exercise but Taufik onie perform short short jerr...not fair mann. But then again it's not about Taufik it's about the tsunami disaster so. Nemindd ahh.

Then he did the workout too know!!! Damnn cutee ahh!!! Wahhhhhhh!!!!! Dengan de nyer sweat2 smerr cute gilerr siol!!!! Ahhhhh apasal dia cute sangat????????

Then he went to the lounge and I managed to touch his hand. GRINGRINGRINGRIN. =D Does anybody realise that smiley is obscene??? See join the = and the D and you simply get...bananas. =D

Heyy I met his mum! Wahhhhh she's so NICE mann!!! No wonder Taufik loves her so much... =)

I waved to him twice but he waved back once. He always tilts his head izzit?? (".) Cute mann. =D Aperr jerr dierr...bodyguard2 dierr smerr dah kat pintu nak bawak dierr gi kreta dierr abih dia dok dok bersembang kat sofa jerr. Merepek nyerr!! =p

Then we stood by the side of the road to wave at him but his van hadn't even passed and I saw his hand waving to us...!!!!! Klakar lahh plak! =D

Oh then his van disappeared and we weren't sure where to go...then zai's friend told us he went to orchard rd so we were wondering whether we should go nott....but eventually we decided on goin to his hm.

Yepp we had to wait for him downstairs while he prayed all. But he DID come down eventually and then everyone kerumun around him. Taufik this taufik that whatever lahh and I was like standing one FOOT (literally) away from him. But I ran away for fear of doing something paisehfying. Then he signed our phones allllll then he ask us what mags he's in cos he doesn't know. Aperr jerr.

He smells damnn nicee. =D

Yepp then he went upstairs and showed us some pic or something. I dunnoe I coldn't get what it was cos I was sloww. But it was a gambar of him I saw his face I think it was framed. I thought it was a whiteboard. =D

Okeyy lahh I must do my article now. I have wasted enough time. BYE!

Wazzaa!

Okayy. Heyy the secones are really nice pps. Very nice pps yup. Okay I don't know why I'm here. I'm waiting for Arina to call me...sighh damn am I bored...

Just now I did research on the rs project. Yay...hehh nice ahh. Actually not really but whatever. I'm in Suzanna's grp. Yepp. We just narrowed down the topics and now what's left is just finalizing it. Yepp. Sposed to do research but once when decide on the topic, we will do a project plan and deadlines and all that. Yepp.

I feel so guai!!! Righht. Okayy.

What am I gonna ask him to sign onnn??? Ohh my phone! My wallet...my...uhh...foolscap??? My pencilbox??? Ahh kentalnyer asal smer byk2 ahh???????? Tak penat ke tangan dia?? Kerepek btol.

Tapiikk ehh...aku lagi merepekk...sighh..

Which reminds me I'm sposed to find out who roy's angel is...I think it shd be one of the more guai and prioritizing pple of 205...heh. I think I better go now..bye!!

Helloo.

Right now, I have a pillow under my wrists. They are fragile property k. If I move, they'll drop off. Okayy I think it'd be better to just recount the whole dayy.

Todayy was a longg dayy which means school ended at three. Which means everyone was damnn hsienn ready lahh.

Okayy was first block was geog. We were supposed to do research on two crop types from a list mrs ng gave us and bring samples of the researched crops too. I did do it but I forgot to bring my samples. I did banana and rice. I already put the banana =) [ I just realized that has sexual connotations!] on the table along with the rice yesterday night. Then in the morning I woke up and found it not there...why??? cos my maid ate the banana in an effort to finish the food to stock up on some more...and she used the rice to cook rice. I shall not say a'thing but obviously I wanna say the k word. Geez...

Okay back to the original subject yea. Second block pe. We had to do three sets of warm up mann...k___ ahh. Aperr jerr merepekk kerepekk btoll. Aderr crunches lahh..step-ups lahh...push-ups lahh...bendy bodiee thingg lahh....ntah apa aku nik merepek ajerr. Tapi the rockwall was 10 m. How can it be bloody cleared in 30 sec? Merepekk kerepekk ajerr. And besides it hurts the finger to go and climb stuff. Eesh.

Third block lit. It was only mildly interesting. Becky's group was the most comprehensive one. And of course I had to write 3 full pages of annotation...ughh...macam nak protol gituu tangann aku kesiann ahhh...sakit auu...adoikk!

After that recess and I shouted hi to muneerah tho maryam and dian decided not to.

Fifth block histoy. Okay okay jerr larr...normal gakk...but I had to write a lot too since I didn't finish my reflection and worksheet. o.0 Yes I know I very guai.

Sixth science...okay okay ajerr....nothing so damn interesting but my group got high. Everyone except me cos I was busy trying to finish up ws 3 which was due ready. Guai again. I know lahhhh. You all k___ ahh.

After that seventh lunch. I met the 105 malay kiddies..and I found out that Zafirah is quite talkative but she shutted up when she realized I was staring at herr, cos I was a bit the surprised. Aida was also there. I saw for the first time in days mann. Hehh. Nyce gurL, she.

Next, eighth block malay. Just a compre test. Wait not just. Lucky that was formative mann otherwise I would've died. Yepp definitely.

Then it was perbayu orientation!! So fun yay!! I got to meet most of the sec ones...there's this really short gurL I forgot her name ready cos it's forgettable but she's like cili padi know. I mean. She can lift Dian! Wahh!! Macam strongman gituk...opps strongketotlilgurL. I am so meann...and yes she screams louder than Arina! She was chasing Dian around asking her, "are you my angel?" and Dian was freaking out...cos her voice sounds like that chucky person...taktau ahh. I was like in front of her when she screamed and like OWWWWWW!!!! Pecahh tau my eardrums dammit!!! Arghh!! Adoikk!!! Practically the whole malay room turned to look at her...and I think everyone was saying she screams damn loud...okay anyways.

Last of all I went home. I was late for tuition. Like one hour late but who cares. So I took 105 with Aida and then dropped at far east and went to orchard mrt station, where I met Sofia. Hehh. My dearr juniors are so damnn enthu about buckle...alahh but richard rocks more pfffttt. I think they're like rivals cos Buckle won sports fest and 03 championship but richard won 04 championship. So yea. Haiiiii. Not bad for secones ahh.

Okay I gtg now cos mum's naggin me to do my hmk. So byee!

Here Without You

a hundred days have made me older
since the last time that I saw your pretty face
a thousand lies have made me colder
and I don't think I can look at this the same
but all the miles are separate
disappeared in the mirror of your face

I'm here without you, baby
but you're still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby
and I dream about you all the time

I'm here without you baby
but you still leave me in my dreams
and tonight
it's only you and me

the miles just keep rolling
as the people leave their way to say hello
I've this life is overrated
but I hope that it gets better as we go
oh yeah

I'm here without you baby
but you're still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby
and I dream about you all the time

I'm here without you baby
but you're still with me in my dreams
and tonight girl
it's only you and me

everything I know
everywhere I go (alone)
it gets hard but it won't take away my love

when the last one falls
and when it's all set and I'm
it gets harder but it won't take away my love

I'm here without you baby
but you still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby
and I dream about you all the time

I'm here without you
but you're still with me in my dreams
and tonight girl
it's only you and me

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yepp...my latest obsession...it's a nyce song, dammit...along with Hoobastank's Running Away and Same Direction, and let's not forget u2's Vertigo, dashboard confessional's Vindicated, and Simple Plan's Welcome To My Life...and Taufik. Alahh but Taufik a bit the extra de kalau nak tarok lagu2 rock nik...btw it's just dawned on me that I'm not close with Chinese people so why the heck shd I write what I want in eng dammit! It's easier in Malay...and if I sound pissed, that's cos I AM pissed at some m_________ people dammit. Shit f__ them ah wahlau I don't give a frickin f___. M________. You know what I just give up. I f____ give up. Argh...

Okay putting that aside. I gotta chill. Hooh. Wokay. Nice and easy. There's a new hot teacher in school I think...he just looks like it from far. I don't think that makes sense. To change the topic,I came back from 3rd lang just now with a secone from 105, Sofia who is "space"'s mortal. And her friend. Also from 105. There are like 7 or 8 people in 105 ah. Cool right. Tapik ader yang tak tau mana class tray. Near the GENERAL OFFICE people. And when you reach school from the foyer, you can just go past the mini-amphitheater (also the rockwall) and follow the track to J block. Simple enough? Betcha yes. Good.

Apparently my little Aida is the cute joker. Cos she laughs the hardest everytime there's something funny and she makes the whole class laugh and then she can't stop laughing and makes the whole class laugh again. I find the circle of events cute. Tho I miss Aida lots ah. I haven't seen her since the first day school...she like my little sister ah she. Blur blur liddat then looks frantically for me when I'm gone. Hahah so cute dammit. I think she lives in Bukit Batok. She's my father's colleague's daughter. And she's not the tall one just cos I greeted the tall one in the canteen so enthusiatically and just cos my nick on msn was I love Aida Bte Abdul Rahim. The Tall One [if you'd kindly notice the capitalization] is Muneerah Bte Abdul Razak. Who is my father's RI friend. And I'm not being bitchy by capitalizing RI. Just that weird lah to type in small case. Don't beeleef that's your f____ problem.

I can't believe how meticulous and sensible the new secones are...it seems like they're more mature then us dammit...wth I'm using tons of dammits dammit. And f____ it I'm crapping dammit.

Okay I shall abstain from any more internet usage for social pursuits for tonight cos I'll just...flop...NGUAPS...onto...NGUAPS..my bed...ahhhhhhh. Nyam nyam. SNOREEEEE.

I wonder if Taufik snores.

I've been sleeping at 2 am every day for the past week doing my hmk and HOW COME I STILL DON'T HAVE A CLEAN SLATE????????? IT'S NOT M_______ FAIR DAMMIT!!! AHHHHH!!!!

Yo.

Yup so school has officially started. Well, I must say it's a fairly good start. I've made friends with a sec one already hah. Her name is Aida Bte Abdul Rahim and she's from 105 but sadly she's in Buckle. Oh well. Can't have your cake and eat it too, huh? [actually I never got that idiom or whatever it's called. What's wrong with having your cake and eating it too? Cakes are meant to be eaten o.0] Too bad. But she's cute. And she's apparently shy. But I apparently transformed her or something. She was so damn enthu and excited and high sounding when Dad called her Dad. Cos she was screaming "YA I MET SANTRI!" in the background. Like, okay. But I guess it's normal. I know I onie met her for like 10 or 15 teenyweeny minutes but I still LOVE her. Nice to have someone appreciate you...and to think all I did was say hi and show her that lists of names and classes on the foyer. beambeambeam. Oh man she really looks like she needs someone to guide her. Hey she's sec one. And it's a fairly big school. FAIRLY. I got a place to sit and relax for a while but I lost her and then she looked so lost and like, "omgosh where is she?" Heh I feel so Kakak-ly. But I dowan her to call me Kak Ani. Hey my Auntie is called that. Like what the freakin' hell! Maybe Kak Santri. Cos I bet no one else in the whole population of Singapore has a name like mine. beambeambeamsmore.

But after all this is the transition period, so to speak. Heh. Like me last time. So damn pent up. But I know I cheer loud<3. I dunno why and how, I just tried doing it the way everybody did it and it worked. There was one time I screamed YES!!! during orientation last year and Kak Fadz heard me and she turned to the person sitting at the front of the class and I think she was asking who it was.

Oi. Ignore my endless prattling. Just that some of the sec ones are so..ketot. Makes me think of me last time. Hah. Oh, beans.

Hey I'm one of the tallest girls among my family. Of course I can't beat the guys. They're...lanky. I guess. But I'm like short. In school. And I told my cousin who's 10 cm shorter than me but she's the same age. And she said if I'm short than what the hell is she? smalldepieces. kacang. peanuts. chickendodol. Haha. I got the last laugh.

Dwarves. Heya how's life down under? Heh. Heh. Pfft beans.

Baihakki Khaizan. I think he's Singapore's defender. But that's not the point. He's just HOT man. HOT. I was sleeping over at my gramma's hse with my cousins the other time. And we read the newspaper and he was in the sports section and my cousin was like hensem semacam!!! Fuiyooo!! Okay. Kak Sarah and Kak Hab and Kak Liy think so too. Or maybe there's some others. I dunno. There's lots of people who think he's hot in angklung. Heh. Among them me of course.

But Taufik's hotter. Big duh.

Which reminds me. I haven't updated my links or whatever in a looooonnnggg time. Just to lazy. I guess php isn't for me, dudes.

I love horses. Oh, just a random thought.

Hey I made a new year resolution. Why is everyone so negative about being a sec two? Smalldepieces. I mean it's a NEW YEAR! I'm gonna get better grades. Ohyeahohyeah. Anyway it's not so bad. I mean sure we have that dreaded rs project thing. But other than that...you get Juniors!!! Comes with the package. Hah. So finally you're not the "young `un"s anymore. And the sec fours aren't on some distant faraway planet like Pluto cos they're just sec threes + one year.

I LOVE YOU AIDA!!! But don't get me wrong. PLEASE. Heh you're so smalldepieces. I saw the back of your head today...getting attendance or something at assembly. So smalldepieces!!!! Okay I think I've freaked you out enough. I need to go mam-mam. Urgh...I don't like ah. AH! I'll play piano first. Belaian Jiwa! Whoo.

And once again, Taufik rocks. More than sly. Sly rocks 10% I guess vs Taufik's 1001%. Heh.

Bye!